Eyes that hold her world

”Okay so guys, these are the factors that affect organizational behavior. ” I showed them the chart I drawn on the board. ”People, technology, structure, and environment, ” I repeated pointing to the board.

Its been five days since Ive started teaching at UCLA. So car its been great. The students and I have bonded instantly.

Thats what Ive always wanted. Thats what Im here for. To make our relationship transparent, so when I go back and start class online we won feel detached.

The whole class wrote down the points I explained. There were not too many students. I have only two classes a day. One is OB which has only thirty students and the other is marketing management which has only twenty students. This my second and last class of the day.

People might think that I left my whole business to teach herein UCLA. That Im kind and all. But the truth is Ive always wanted to teach. It is one of the many bucket lists that I got a cross mark on.

I believe that life is too short to do only one job every day when we can do so many things. I love doing different things regularly.

Ive been living with the boys for the past week. So far its been great. Not that I spent time with them every second but we have dinner together and sometimes we watch movies as well.

All of them made sure I am comfortable. All of them except him. Not that I want to talk to him but sometimes I wish I was. But we are not going there.

I and the other boys crack jokes, pick on each other and make sarcastic comments. It never felt like we only know each other for a week.

We have created a real quick friendship. Where we don need to feel obligated to each other. We just are we are. And that is working so far.

”Okay, so I would like to assign you, people, some work for the weekend. So Ill mail you guys the questions. Make sure it is short but better be proficient. ” I have already collected their mail ids and gave them to my Secretary. All I need to do is send her the question so she could mail it to them.

”Is it going to be about the topics we covered this week or only todays topic? ” One of my students asked. Its weird to they are my students since Im only twenty-five.

”Wouldn you like to know? I know you guys will do excellent work so don worry. Enjoy your weekend but not so much. ” I winked and we all laugh. The bell rang signaling the class is over.

”Okay, so thats it for today. The best for you presentations tomorrow. ” I waved at them. I went out of the room towards the parking lot.

Im done for the week with OB class cause they have their presentation tomorrow, so I only have marketing class tomorrow. Then I can enjoy the weekend.

I groaned thinking about that. I have stacks of emails in my inbox. I have piles of papers sent by my assistant. Im going to have to work all weekend. Not that I have a lot of problems because I love my business.

………..

”Baby doll, stop stuffing your face in that laptop for so long. ” Harry snatched my laptop and placed it on the table.

”God, what do you want now? ” I groaned ”And stop calling these hideous names. ” I scrunched my nose.

”Now now what made your mood so sour. ” He raised his arms in his defense.

”Nothing just business stuff. ” I shrugged. ”What do you wanna do? ” I asked him politely. He has been good to me from the start. Everyone has been including Ace. But he is ignoring me now.

Cause you pushed him. My subconscious snapped at me. I rolled my eyes at my subconscious. Its for the best.

Right, thats why you keep searching for him in the room when all the guys are present. Aghhh.

Whatever.

It hurts though. I know I sound pathetic. He is so good at this ignoring game. He makes it look like I don exist in the room. Even if we live in the same house not to mention next to each others room.

But he is good at ignoring. I can tell. My chest tightened when I thought about how I insulted him outside that washroom. How hurt he looked. But he was pushy.

Was he? Aghhh, go away you bitch. I snapped at my inner self.

”Yo. Are you even listening? ” I snapped out of my thoughts when harry asked me loudly.

”Yeah, I am. I am. ” I nodded at him.

”So what about we jam tonight. Ive been asking you for so long you keep denying. ” He squinted his eyes as if accusing me.

Thats true though. He and carl have been asking me to jam and play for the past five days after they heard me singing. But I denied it because well I don know why I denied it. But he is so sweet I think we should try once.

”Okay lets do it. ” I agreed. He beamed at me.

”Great. Lets have dinner and then we can have some fun. Since Ace is out we should wait for him cause without him there will be no fun. ” He said and quickly walked out of the room to the living room.

I followed after him. I think they are bound to their brotherhood since Ace is the lead singer of their band. Thats why they don want to play without him.

”Guys listen up lets have dinner and take the instrumental to the backyard Alessia has agreed to get into a jamming session with us today. ” He declared.

”Thats cool. Dinner is ready and Ace will be back anytime now. ” Nick knows where Acr went cause none of us know. Or maybe I only don .

We all sat at the dining table and the server started serving. The food smelt delicious cause Im starving I dig right into it without looking at others.

”Where did he go to anyway? ” Harry asked to no one in particular.

”Oh, he went out to clear his head. And I know he is out at some bar. ” Luke answered. I pretended like I didn hear it.

”He went to a bar without telling us? ” Carl asked shocked.

”Yeah. Cause he is not there to drink. ” Luke rolled his eyes. I saw nick giving me side glances. Like I care where he is.

You do…..my inner self. Aghhh Aren you dead yet bitch. I snapped again.

”So what he is there for? ” Harry frowned then he realized something and said ”oh ”. am I missing something here?

”Yeah, I knew he went out to get laid. ” As soon as carl announced that I grimaced at my food feeling nauseous.

See men are the same. He is no different. How can I make myself believe that he will be different because he wanted to talk to me?

But what made me more confused is the feeling of betrayal. The sting of jealousy is gripping at my heart. I don have any rights to feel like this. Im practically a nobody in his life as he is in mine. Then why it is so difficult for me to breathe the air not gulp it.

My phone rang startling me but I have never been more thankful for this electronic device than Im right now. As I excused myself and about to move from the room the front door opened.

No.no.no.no.no. don make it more difficult than it already is. Ace stumbled forward with a brunette in his arm. Shit, I do not want to see that.

I tried to move though I couldn . I couldn even respond to what my assistant was telling me on the phone. I just stared at him and the girl in his arms. Whom I recognized as his girlfriend from outside his room.

As he saw me standing there he looked up and for a fraction of a second, I saw guilt in his eyes was it guilt. why would he feel guilty anyway? but it was quickly vanished replaced by anger. I rolled my eyes at him and smiled at the girl and dashed out of the room.

I don want to be there to see him admitting that something is going on between them. That she is here to spent the night in his room.

God. I sound like a jealous girlfriend. The irony is that in not even his friend. I pushed him when he tried though

I went inside my room and opened my laptop to drown myself in my work. Thats what Ive always done. When I don want to feel something I hide behind my work. It always worked well for me.

……………

Three hours its been. Me drowning myself in my office work, me taking a hot long shower, me listening to music but nothing worked though.

My mind was completely disturbed. I didn try to think about the couple next door but they kept crawling in my mind.

The way he had her wrapped around his arms. God. Im getting insane. I need to clear my mind. I don need to get around picturing them in a bed together.

Because I don have a right to feel the way Im feeling. I am no one. An outsider who is living for free in his house.okay, rental house.

I put on a hoodie over my oversized t-shirt and wore a pajama shorts. I made a messy bun out of my wet hair and sighed cause they are so long that they are falling over my face. I put on my slippers and went outside.

I open my door and made sure not to make any noise. I slid the garden door open and try walked out. I need some open air to clear my head.

As I was descending the stairs of the garden my slippers slipped. I went tumbling down the stairs. My whole body is twisted fatally.

I groan in pain and tried to sit up straight but failed. My whole body is aching. And feet feels like its getting hammered.

After taking a few deep breaths I tried and sat up still groaning. As I was about to try and stand I saw a figure coming down on the stairs.

It was so dark that I couldn see who it was. But I was praying to God that its not some thief. I don want to get into that right now. I want to live some more you know.

But as the figure came near I saw its mouth moving but I can hear anything. Maybe because I hit my head so hard that my ears are not working anymore.

But I started crawling back. Obviously, out of instinct. As the figure started crouching down in front of me I closed my eyes and screamed. But a hand closed off on my mouth.

The touch felt familiar. I can recognize that touch cause I felt it before. Maybe he was holding a bit hard that day. But the heat and the feel of his hands were so comforting. When I opened my eyes I saw him. Though I knew who it was my breath got caught in my throat.

Ace.