d……

 

When did this happen?

 

Before I knew it, I’ve already had ——

—-been crying all this time?

My voice shouldn’t have trembled before……

 

My body should have already stopped trembling.

 

Suddenly…

 

Pat

 

I could feel Touka’s hand placed on my head.

 

[————-Ah.]

 

[I’m sorry…… but you’re not the only one who could see through lies.]

 

[Touka-dono……?]

 

[Say, Seras.]

 

[W- What is it—-]

Towards my quivering response, He responded sounding like he comprehended something.

 

[As I thought, you’re really weird.]

 

[Eh?]

[I’ve never experienced that feeling of irritation towards someone before, not even towards my Aunt.]

 

(His aunt……?)

 

[This feeling…… This is honestly the first time I’ve felt it ever since the day I was born.]

 

I did say he sounded irritated before.

 

However, the irritation in Touka’s voice has already disappeared.

 

Instead, there was gentleness in his voice.

 

And a bit of bewilderment.

 

I feel like he himself was surprised by his emotions.

 

[Thereupon, Seras.]

 

[W- What is it……]

 

[You need to stop holding yourself back—– It’s fine for you to stay selfish once in a while.]

 

[———,……Eh?]

 

[That promise you said that one time that you would do anything I said…… You must have forgotten about it huh.]

 

[U- Umm…… Touka-dono? What did you just……]

 

[You…… You really must have wanted to help her, right? To become that Princess’s strength…… However, you won’t say that you want to help her.
No…… You probably can’t, right?]

 

[—————-]

 

This… won’t do.

 

This won’t do at all.

 

[N- No…… I—-]

 

[Back when we were having dinner, Erika and the others were there, so I didn’t point it out towards them but…… You’re so obvious, you know?]

 

[Eh—–]

 

[It’s easy to see how important that “Princess” is to Seras, I could tell that just by looking at you until now.
You know, you have said before that I look different when I talk about my Uncle and his family but……]

 

Touka began barraging me with words, one sentence after another.

 

[Those times when you talk about that “Princess”…… Do you know what face you’re making at those times?]

 

[The face I’m making…… is it?]

 

[That face you’re making towards that “Princess”, the person who would set out on a battlefield in which you wouldn’t know if she could even survive…… It would be unreasonable for your emotions not to get disarrayed.]

 

[T- That is……]

 

[I’m grateful that you’re trying to suppress these varying emotions of yours while working with me, as you’re really aware that you are my “sword”.
However, suppressing your feelings even towards someone you really care about…… That’s wrong.]

 

I could feel my face scrunching up as I somehow tried to weave the words that I needed to reply.

 

I somehow tried to pick up words to speak.

 

[——-Touka-dono, the Princess and I…… already…… properly finished our farewells……]

 

[You’re wrong.]

 

[Eh?]

 

[If you really finished giving her a proper farewell, you’re going to have to look a lot nicer than you are now.
Well…… You still have a lot of things to learn in acting, Seras.]

 

I clench my teeth.

 

I, at least, tried—– to hold back these tears, but I couldn’t stop weeping.

 

My mind wouldn’t stop overflowing with questions.

 

Why—

 

Why is he…

 

—-this is too much for me…

 

……Someone may be watching us.

 

[I think I know how painful it is, not being able to properly say your farewells.]

 

A proper farewell.

 

I could only gasp in surprise.

 

———Ah, I see.

 

That’s what it means.

 

The people important to him.

 

He also wasn’t able to finish saying any proper farewells towards them.

 

[If you want to continue to serve as my “sword” as you swore…… That in itself is fine.
However…… I think it’s still not too late to properly say your goodbyes to that Princess, right?]

 

[However…]

 

[I got all of these information out from Erika after we ate.
Princess Cattleya’s army still haven’t been incorporated in the Southern army yet, and they still haven’t genuinely joined in the battle.]

 

[!]

 

[It seems that they were initially moving along with the others… But it appears that the Great Demon Emperor’s army that was currently invading the south, compared to the other armies in the east and west, will still have some time before their main forces confront each other.
Moreover…… I heard that there are lots of mercenaries taking part in this war.
In that case, I think we could slip into the Southern Army under the guise of mercenaries.]

 

[Touka-dono…… Really……? Are we really going into that battlefield against the Great Demon Emperor’s army…… No, h- however…… We’re deep into the Demon Zone……]

 

[You do know that we just broke through the monsters when we entered the Demon Zone, right? In that case……]

 

Touka is now behind me.

 

And yet, in my mind, it feels like I could clearly see that wicked smile on his face.

[Wouldn’t it be really strange if we can’t even get out ourselves?]

 

[I think….
Ummm—–……………..]

[I’ll tell you what, Seras.
I’ll have you know that you……]

 

Touka placed his hands on my shoulders.

 

[You’re very good at seeing through lies…… but you’re not very good at telling them.]

 

[I…]

 

[You don’t have to deceive yourself so much that you’re ending up killing yourself.]

 

“Fuuunnn…” Touka snorted.

 

[The second that you think you can hide it from me, you’ve already lost.]

 

[——————-]

 

As if something that’s been held back was finally released—– I could feel it running throughout my body.

 

……It seems that there’s no point in hiding it anymore.

 

I feel like I can’t hide anything in front of him right now.

 

He will probably have an answer for every doubt in my heart.

 

[You want to lend your strength to the Princess.
And at the very least, you also wanted to properly say your farewells.
That’s…… what you wished for, right?]

 

Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I continued sobbing.

 

I tried wiping them away with both of my hands.

 

However—- The tears just continuously increase.

 

I wipe and wipe…

 

They’re ceaselessly overflowing, along with these emotions that violently shake me.

 

[Yes…… Yes, Touka-dono……,————–]

 

I felt some strength coming from the hands placed on my shoulders.

 

[That’s fine.]

 

Touka removes the hands he placed on my shoulders.

[Let’s go.]

 

He walked past me.

 

And then, as he stepped in front of me—– He said behind his back.

 

[We need to prepare for war.]

 

As if I’ve already forgotten how to stop them, my tears kept on flowing down as I gave him the brightest smile I got, and I responded behind his back.

 

[Yes—— Yes, My Lord Touka-dono……]

 

[One more thing.]

 

Turning his head towards me, Touka said.

 

However, it feels like those deep dark eyes weren’t looking at me, but towards a wall somewhere to the side.

 

[If the situation were to turn really favorable……]

 

His jet-black eyes, devoid of warmth—- weren’t looking at this place, but gazing somewhere into the distant darkness.

 

[There are some people I’d like to crush, so slightly making use of this opportunity wouldn’t hurt a bit, right?]

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