Landing On My Heart

The white smoke curled up, separating the gaze from the two.

If it was in normal time, Ruan Sixian would have left long ago.

But today is different.

After a long silence, she suddenly said: “Today is Dad’s birthday.”

Dongxian was stunned for a moment, and it was obvious that she didn’t remember.

This was Ruan Sixian’s expected response.

She sighed, “Forget it.
I have to go now.”

“Wait a minute.” Dong Xian stopped her, “Ruan Ruan, do you still mind the matter between me and your dad?”

Ruan Sixian was very helpless because her heart felt stabbed, but she didn’t know what to say.

She feels like if she talks too much, it will only be a nuisance, but if she doesn’t talk about it, Dong Xian will bring this up again.

Before Ruan Sixian could answer, Dong Xian said it herself first.

“There are some things I didn’t say before because you were still young and didn’t understand.”

She paused, “And afterwards…”

“Just say it.” Ruan Sixian interrupted her, “Don’t talk about those nonsense anymore.”

Dong Xian seemed to be mulling over her words.
After a while, she said, “As a mother, I am sorry for you.
But as a wife, I have done my best.”

It was indeed quite good.

Ruan Sixian thought, she indeed did a good job doing laundry, cooking, and taking care of her husband.

“As for why we divorced, I admit that I was very selfish in this matter.”

She said, “When Mr.
Guo found me, I am already 37 years old.”

She bit those words very hard.
“I am already thirty-seven years old.
If I miss it again, I will never have another chance again in my life.”

Ruan Sixian knew what she meant, but she didn’t understand.

“Was the conflict because of this?”

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“At first I also thought there was no conflict.” Thinking of the past, Dong Xian held her head and looked pale.
“But the reality is not as beautiful as I thought.
There is nothing that doesn’t require time and energy.
If I want to sign a contract with Mr.
Guo, I have to follow him to the north and south, I have to be in seclusion so that I can create new works, and I am destined to not be able to stay at home like before.”

Ruan Sixian didn’t speak, and Dong Xian’s words were not so clear anymore as she once again said: “I am already thirty-seven years old.
Since I married your dad at the age of twenty-two, for fifteen years, I have loved my husband, taught my children, and respected the elderly.
At the time I almost thought I would just keep being like this for the rest of my life, a talent agent appeared.
My first reaction was to tell your dad.
But what was his reaction?”

Ruan Sixian: “He…”

Dong Xian changed her hand, lowered her eyes, and said to herself: “I will always remember what he said, ‘You are a wife and a mother.
If you go to pursue your dreams, what about the family?’

Ruan Sixian suddenly lost her original words.
She became silent and listened to Dong Xian so quietly for the first time.

But she didn’t go on with that topic.
When she thought of the quarrel with the door locked that year, she still has a headache now.

“I am very selfish.
After I divorced your dad, I really didn’t think about taking you away.
I know that I have no fixed place to live in the next few years.
It’s not suitable for you to follow me.
So I think it’s best for you to stay at home, study and live with your dad.”

She raised her eyes to look at Ruan Sixian.
The fine lines at the corner of her eyes could not be covered by makeup already.

“I am sorry that I didn’t grow up with you and didn’t fulfill my responsibilities as a mother.”

Zheng You’an stayed in the fitting room for a long time.
Her legs were getting sore.
She looked outside through the seams several times, and finally waited until Ruan Sixian got up.

She took a breath and was about to go out when she heard Dong Xian say: “Can’t you give me a chance to compensate for it?”

The hand that opened the door stopped.