When the Nemesis Eats the Wicked Woman

had to kill in the future.

Could he afford all of this?

If the oracle that I was a monster which would annihilate the innocent lives of this land came down soon…

Even if he chose to get rid of me in order to save countless lives, he would be heartbroken for the rest of his life.

‘Because he will have to live with the weight of hurting the woman he loves with his own hands.’

I couldn’t breathe well.

The pain that seemed to break a bone came over me with regret.

Why didn’t I keep the line and ended up getting close to him?

Why did I foolishly hold on to hope again?

Even after going through so much over the past years, did I still not realize it?

Abandoned more cruelly when I met my mother with hope.

Just like in the past, when I was killed more brutally every time I struggled to live.

It was clear that the same thing was happening again.

I looked in the mirror with a half-crazed expression on my face.

“If I end this life in advance…”

I felt like a little devil was whispering in my ear.

‘If I kill myself, the oracle won’t come down in the future.’

How could the oracle come down when the object of the oracle disappeared?

If I could end my story here with my own hands.

Rixus wouldn’t have to make a difficult decision.

If I end my life, my life would restart the same as usual.

I would again be abandoned by my parents and return alone to the cold swamp.

And then again.

Never, ever, ever again!

I wouldn’t be able to pretend to know Rixus.

This love that only I could remember, it would only be buried in my heart… I would be repeating the boring past.

The past where I was killed and ruined.

But at least Rixus wouldn’t suffer from that choice.

He would be doing nothing more but destroying a demon that would destroy the world.

“….…”

With trembling hands, I pulled out a thick, sharp dagger from the drawer.

The hands aiming at my own neck trembled.

‘Is going to be good for Rixus?’

Could he be sane once he found my body?

I was choked with the thought of his face, from which he had whispered love countless times last night.

At my funeral, he would weep bitterly.

He would be the hapless man who lost his wife after he barely won her heart, and as soon as they spent their first night together.

What if he lived his whole life alone?

“…Uh-huh.”

Clank—

The dagger dropped from my trembling hand and I collapsed.

The whole future was terribly horrifying.

It didn’t seem like I could stand any of it.

Leaving his side with my own hands.

Facing Rixus who completely forgot me, and being killed countless times by his hand again.

Those warm lips.

Friendly eyes.

The hands that touched me…

Forget all that and live.

“Help me, please help me, if anyone is listening!”

Foolishly, I cried and prayed for the slightest bit of help.

But the moment I begged, a cold wind blew into my heart.

I suddenly came to my senses.

“……”

With a tear-drenched face, I looked in the mirror and asked myself.

‘When you asked for help, did heaven help you?’

So far, I have come this far on my own will.

If I couldn’t die and I couldn’t accept this reality…

Wouldn’t I have no choice but to try my best?

‘I’ll hold myself by the neck, I have to take a step forward.’

That was a courtesy to me.
And it was a courtesy to my life.

Even if it was a miserable life with a fixed beginning and an end…

Wasn’t life always precious to me?

There was still time left for me to give up and die like this.

“……”

I took a deep breath, bit down hard on my trembling lips, and looked in the mirror.

Then I forcibly lifted my heart that had fallen into despair.

“…Yes, there is no way at all.”

Poison passed through my reddened eyes.

The time left for me was too short, because I had been desperate and broken for a long time.

I wiped away my tears and changed my clothes with vigour.

In the meantime, I put aside and hid them, the emotions that had earlier burst out in a mess.

When I finally exited through the door, I had a more rational and calmer face than ever before.

* * *

“Your Majesty the Queen looked for me first.”

Johnan warmly welcomed Berylia.

“It’s an honor.”

He nodded his head playfully.

Wasn’t she the one who treated him as a bother for sending countless messages?

Last time, he was even kicked out of the house by being treated like an uninvited guest.

‘But you come to me as soon as you’re in trouble… You’re cute.’

This made him want to keep pushing her into a corner.

Johann hid his dark side and looked at her with kind eyes.

“What have you come to see me for, Queen?”

The corners of Johann’s lips rose smoothly.

Berylia looked at Johann quietly.